I’m through with this.
Or at least, I wish I was.
I don’t want to leave my city (which is really just a big neighborhood); I don’t want to go anywhere at all.
I’m mad and I’m scared. And Yitzchak, who has been insisting, for the past who-knows-how-many months, that all the attacks in Jerusalem were in neighborhoods that were close to the “Green Line”, has been proven wrong. Duh. I kept telling him that maybe that’s so at the moment but in the blink of an eye it will be all of Jerusalem.
Sadly, I was right. The blink of an eye came.
It makes me want to leave Israel – because I know our stupid government won’t do anything without international backing, even if it means Israel committing suicide – until I remember that similar things are happening all over Europe and all over America.
And it’s not just happening to Jews, although Jews are always a favorite target.
In other words, there is no safe place to live. Ever. Anywhere.
So I might as well just stay where I am and pray for the best.
Maybe I should learn to use a gun and carry it with me all the time.
I am going to school to pick up some books and write a fancy-shmansy schedule of what I plan to teach for the entire year (or rather, what I plan to have the students learn the entire year). When I get back, I will try to put in links.
In the meantime, I will attempt to calm my nerves.
If I had wanted to go to Jerusalem within the next few weeks, if I had thought that I really really don’t want to have to go to Be’er Sheva – well, I still don’t want to. But my fear of leaving the area, especially for a city that is not exactly safe anymore, is stronger than my desire to be in Jerusalem. I guess we will see what happens.