Suddenly, my internet works again. I can check my email, the news, and work, while Shlomo is sleeping.
And I realize that even though we have good news, that no one was killed in Judea and Samaria during 2012 because of terror attacks, that is very isolated good news. The rest is worse.
I have been skimming and skipping articles on the Syrian rebellion. I know that the IDF changed the rules of engagement, and I’m pretty sure they widened the border area to keep Israel’s north safer. So, I felt better. Then I read Arlene’s blog, and I remembered something that I had forgotten, or chosen to forget: The Syrian government is losing control. They are on the brink of collapse. They have one of the largest stockpiles of chemical weapons in the Middle East. This stockpile, if not moved or destroyed, may well fall into Hezbollah’s hands. And we all know what that means: Bad news for Israel.
And I read more, and remember, and realize, that things never really calmed down after Operation Pillar of Defense. For that matter, they did not calm down, really, since Operation Cast Lead. We are on the brink of the third intifada – not that the second one ever really ended. That, to me, is more scary than Syria. War with Syria is one thing. Intifada is another. Intifada, to me, means bus bombings and restaurant bombings. These I cannot deal with. Air-raid sirens and bombs falling are something else. These I can deal with, very simply: Everything is canceled, we all stay home. I work as usual, Yitzchak continues studying. We go to a bomb shelter when needed, and we are safe, even if our stuff may not be. This I can deal with. Worrying about buses being blown up or turned over, or restaurants being blown up (not that we go to restaurants, but still), or riots in random neighborhoods – this I cannot deal with. (Not that I don’t deal worry about it anyways . . .) There is no warning siren, there is no safe place to run. Yitzchak thinks that a third intifada will take the form of rockets. I hope and pray that he is right.
And then there is Egypt, which is also undergoing a serious civil war. Luckily, they are not as immediate a concern as Syria is. But a concern they certainly are, and it is just a matter of time.
Maybe I should stick my head back into the sand. It was much more peaceful there.
More good news is that Israel has had less terror attacks this past month than in the previous months. Thank G-d. These are miracles, true miracles. Perhaps it is because security is tight, and we are on guard. No matter what the reason, it is definitely a miracle, and we need to say, thank G-d. But, we cannot rely on this miracle to continue.
And now, more than ever, I am grateful that I work from home, on the computer. It gives me flexibility, and it allows me to not obsessively worry about Shlomo’s safety, because usually, I am with him.
May G-d protect us and keep us healthy, safe, and secure. I will not leave my country, but sometimes I seriously contemplate it. G-d helped us win the war in 1948, He helped us win the war in 1967, and he helped us in 1973. War is ugly, war is cruel. But G-d has helped us, against all odds, and I pray that He will do so again.